Daddy's Little Girl.

This is a very emotional post for me, a letter to my dad, tell me what you think....

It has been 7 long painful tough and lonely years without you. I still remember that day very clearly when I was informed that you are no longer with us. I cried so much, much more than I had ever cried in my entire life. It was the saddest day of my life and what pains my heart with each passing day is that I never got a chance to say goodbye, never got a chance to see your last days on this earth, and never got a chance to see your final resting place. I may one day however gather the courage to go and visit your graveside and pay my last respects to you. But what I regret the most? I never got a chance to tell you how much I love you, how proud I am of you. I never got a chance to tell you how every evening I would look forward to seeing you come home from work each day. Most of all I miss your smile, your warm comforting smile, that would assure me all is well, all is well.

Dad, I really miss you, so so much. I really wish you would be here to see me on my graduation day, in my graduation gown and cape having been given the power to read. I really wish you would be here on my wedding day, to walk me down the aisle to hand me over to my prince charming. I really wish you would be here to see my children, your grandchildren. I really wish you were here to see my brother’s son; he is a splitting image of you both in person and personality. I really wish you would be here to see me all grown up and ready to face the world.

I have to move on and learn to live without you, accept that you are gone and will never come back and to be honest it really hurts, a lot. But I pray that the lord will give me strength to accept the fact that you will never come back. Death leaves a memory no one can steal, death leaves a heartache no one can heal.